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It is definately not a pleasant experience to have a nightmare, especially when you are exhausted. I have been having all these nightmares for a couple of weeks now, and things are simply getting worse. Everytime I was trapped by something and couldn't let go. Though the trick is different, the experience is the same. I wonder what these dreams really mean but do not have the guts to check it out.

Well, maybe I should say the exam schedule is just another continuation of these nightmares! I wonder if there is anyone who'd prefer to write 3 exams in a row on their birthdays. Honestly, I am not a big fan of the birthday luck kinda story. And I know having 3 exams in a row will eliminate my time for any entertainment. I guess that means I should stay at home and do nothing this year.

If the god closes one door for you, there is always another one open. Things will work out eventually, and I should stop bothering myself from thinking about all these annoying things.

I feel bad for complaining all the time about being exhausted. However, I am indeed tired of having an intensed schedule. This is the first time ever that I have to go to school and work basically everyday! Worst of all, I kind of have all my exams within a week. It is always hard to be a fourth year student, because you will have a lot of school work. Meanwhile, I still have to take my GMAT class and work. All these things are driving me exhausted.

I somehow get frustrated of being a mentor, since most of my mentees didn't even respond to my e-mails! I have no idea whether they just simply didn't use that email account or they ignore my msg. Anyways, it is good to have one people who is willing to keep in touch with me. I hope that I can have a meaningful meeting with him this week, since he forgot to show up last week.

There is still one more mid-term ahead, which is the one I fear the most! Thus, there is no more fun for halloween, but only study, study and study!!!

It seems like that I am in a dream which always reminds me of all those memories. I got this very strange feeling after reading a novel, which almost brought me into tears. The main character in this novel is a young boy who enjoys reading and writing. Surprisingly, all his favourite collections are the same as mine! I still remember all those summer days that I sit on the bench under the tree and read those novels. Almost always these novels bring me into such a fancily world that I could never stop imagining. And the sunshine will go through the leaves and fall on my book. It is just one of those quite summer afternoons. To me, the best time comes in the fall. It is such a joyful time when all the leaves are fallen and we are talking about all kinds of books while collecting those yellow leaves. There is a time that I am so much into French novesl that I couldn't help but reading them all day. Those are part of my treasuable memories.

It is funny that I have grown up to be such a sensitive person. I still remember the smell of the lotus in the summer. It is just one of those summer days which I go to the lake with my cousins and enjoy the beautiful scene of the lotuses. It is a pity that we could hardly find them now. The summer now is so different than the one I used to have that I could hardly recognize my hometown. We lost so many during the development. And those scenes fates so quickly like a dream that I'd doubt whether it is true or not. Some of the people in my memory are gone forever. Thus, it is impossible to chace back those past. I still miss the time I spend with my friends doing all kinds of silly things. Is that a sign of getting old? I guess I'd never have an answer for this question.

Well, it seems to be a long time since I last updated the blog, and I tend to be lazier over time in doing so. Indeed, I once considered shut down this space and move to some other places. However, after seeing all those crazy fans in other popular blog sites, I decided to keep my own little quite one open.

There isn't much happening lately, besides I am busying selling my used books. Fortunately, I get rid of most of my old ones and make a few good deals in buying my own books. However, this repeated bargaining process can be annoying which means I am grateful that it is over now. School is as busy as before, except that I am taking courses between two campuses now. It is indeed very interesting to explore different teaching styles and study atmosphere within different campuses though we are still in the very same university. So far I enjoy the life at St. George better since it is more similar to the environment I came from. Anyways, it is hard and competitive to study between two campuses. And that's why I probably need an extra 24 hours each week!

Finally, tomorrow will be the first training of being a mentor at school and I am quite excited. I find it extremely important to get involve in the campus so as to explore more about myself. Hopefully I gonna have fun in it!

Good luck to all my dear friends who are now in their start of grad school~

There is always something in life that we couldn't control. To be more accurately, I was completely shocked and upset by this accident. It wasn't the first time I encountered it, though I hope it would be the very last time.

Somehow I still remember that day and the feeling I had 10 years ago. It wasn't the same scene, but with the same feeling. The only difference is I was too young to remember back then, but now I am old enough to feel it. It is some sort of emptiness you will have after a great loss. And I just can't control myself but full of tears. Things are all different, and it would never be the same again. We should all treasure what we have before we lose them.

Recently, there is a disaster going on with my computer. Or i'd rather call it somehow a curse! First of all, the networking totally broke down on my computer @ home. And the most annoying thing was I was the only one who experienced a complete break down. However, when I consulted with the technical support of the router's company, once again, I got disappointed. Though I learnt it by heart a long time ago that Dlink's customer support didn't really help, I didn't expect to be useless! I spent almost 30 min to get through the agent and another 45 min just trying to see what the problem was! Apparently, the guy didn't know much so as to help me. LOL. In the end, I still have to go to my fd's house just to make sure that my system was properly installed. The final solution is to buy a new router, which actually get me back to the network. = = Thank god that we switched to another company, which I hope to be more reliable and consistent.

Another headache happened on Monday, when my windows system crashed. I couldn't start the XP on my labtop so that I had to format the entire computer! It took me 2 days to fix the side effects caused by the crash. lol.

Well, I guess now I learn it by heart the importance to know a computer geek, or to be a computer geek myself! Though computers bring us a great deal of benefits, it brings in headaches as well. Now I am praying that this new router is really my solution to solve the break down of the internet, since so far it works well.

The cases of H1N1 has increased significantly in north america these days, which reminds me one of those days of SARS. Well, they are not exactly the same thing, but similar reactions. But it seems like people are much clamer this time dealing with the swine flu, thanks to the previous experience of the vase panic of SARS.

I am sure that this H1N1 virus does remind us something: the importance of protecting the environemnt. Since the mad cow disease appeared, we have experienced H5N1 and H1N1, which all related to animals. And more specifically, our daily dishes. Is it possible that this virus may have some relationship with the polution in the recent years? We may never know the answer. Hoewever, one thing is for sure: we have fewer choices on our dining table. Chemical pollution, virus, etc, has leaded us to a dangerous stage of facing all the ravanges of the nature. I believe that it should be a warning of the existing business model and development and pollution. So we should wake up and contribute ourselves to protect our mother land.

I hope this H1N1 will be cured soon.

It seems like I haven't upgrated the blog for a long time. Well, I am finally done with exams today! Congratulations. Unfortunately, I only have a week's break in between the two semesters. The summer semester starts the week after next week, which means I will have no fun in the summer. LOL

For some unknown reason, I have a hardship this term and things just won't turn out easily. Maybe it's because I was easily distracted by other things or for whatever reason that I wasn't fully prepared. I should have worked harder in the mid-terms, which would put me in a much better position than now. Anyways, it is too late to regret for anything now.

Recently, I just reassure the necessity of keeping a secret from others. Maybe it seems to be silly to say so, but u just simply dun wanna let everything expose to others. Distance makes beauty. This is the truth. And we all learn from our failures and learn to be more conscious when making friends. Somehow I miss my highschool days. We were all so pure at the time and even worried about silly things. Well, those days will never come back to us and we just keep moving into more "serious" stuffs, which isn't necessary your concern. Reality teaches us to compromise and to be mature. I guess it's the time to get over the past and stop my silly emotions.

Good luck to all those of my fds who are still looking for jobs. And the best wishes to my dear cousin as well.